Just a wistful sigh…

[shinryou]

I have been avoiding writing.

I have been avoiding blogging.

I knew I was doing this for months and months.

Just wasn’t sure why.
Wasn’t sure I wanted to know why.

I made excuses.

Life has been hectic.

My health has been completely sucky.

There is always something going on somewhere.

The truth is…

I think I am avoiding writing…

Is because I am trying to avoid my own brain.

This never works… I know this.

My brain isn’t going away.

The thoughts aren’t going to go away.

The bad memories and nightmares aren’t going to go away.

I am still going to have to deal with what my brain is trying to get me to deal with.

Not writing about it isn’t going to make it go away.

But sometimes you just need a break, even from yourself.

Not writing my way of taking a vacation from my own brain.

My brain however is not fooled nor is it amused.

Persisted and insisted it is, and it will have its way and be heard.

Sigh…

It was nice while it lasted.