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Thursday, April 4th, 2013 05:09 pm
I have come to the conclusion that people make me very tired.

I am tired of the craziness, tired of the foolishness, tired of the games, tired of people not making any kind of coherent sense. I am tired of the predigest and tired of the pettiness, I am tired of people's judgments, tired of people preaching against the very thing they are doing themselves. I am so very, very tired of people who only see the world in black and white.

I am tired of people who think they know more, hear more, feel more, understand more; and who feel they must preach, beat me over the head with their so called knowledge and understanding. And I am really tired of these same people ranting and raving at me; when they can't string to sane words together and make it come out in some sort of coherent language that humans can understand. And I am really, really tired of the puzzled looks I get when I can't understand them and just reply to all this craziness with a blank look and an "Huh? You wanna try that again in a language I can actually understand..."

I am so tired of winning, and tired of crying, and so very, very tired of people who complain it isn't fair; and who are stuck in the should of, could of things of life. I deal with what's real, not with what I would like it to be, I just don't have the time and energy to waste on people who want to sit and cry into their beer about how unfair life is. I never expected life to be fair and am sick to death of hearing people bitch about it. And what gets me the most, is these same people who wine and cry about the unfairness of life, are the last bloody people to get off their asses and do something about changing things. They want the world handed to them on a silver platter and it annoys the crap out of me.

I am tired of people wanting things from me but not telling me what they want, and then getting irritated with me because I haven't given them what they wanted, when most of the time I didn't even know they wanted something. I am tired of people talking at me, but not really wanting to hear me talk back. And I am really, really weary with trying to talk to people and having no one really hear a single word I have said; and then all of them wondering why I stopped talking altogether.

People make me tired, down to my soul, bone weary tired.Becoming a hermit looks better and better every day.
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Thursday, April 21st, 2011 12:53 am

So we have to have a bunch of work done on the house. It’s over 47 years old and was a tract house, so it’s showing some wear. We have done small things here and there over the last ten years but really; it’s over due for a major overhaul.


We had the house painted last year and my brother put in two new fences and three gates. (Still waiting for half of one of those gates.) And this year his Mom decided to help out with the rewiring, new heating and cooling and other stuff that needs to be replaced.


So its decided the whole house needs to be rewired which is no surprise to us, as when you blew one fuse three rooms would go out and it got really annoying. So the electricians make plans to come and replace the wiring, only everyone in the house came down with the bronchitis from hell, and my brother isn’t letting anything go in unless he watches what they are doing. So we put it off for a week. The week goes by and they finally start work. They start on the garage and outside which makes much noise but doesn’t impact on life that greatly other than we had to empty the garage into the back yard. They were suppose to do my brothers room, bathroom and bar area off the garage first, but as it has no crawl space they decide to skip up to the main floor first… without warning me or my daughter, of course. So they move stuff in the living room all out into the middle of the floor so they can get to the plugs… and then haven’t showed up for two days to do anything, and they left after a half day Monday. They have suppose to have been working for ten days now, and when I counted up the days they weren’t here, only one of which they called about, they have only been working five and a half. And Mom’s management company wants to know why it’s taking so long…O~o


Really, I am more than happy to move stuff around so they can put holes in my walls to rewire, but I kind of thought the idea was they were actually going to do the work as we went. I can’t even get through my living room, my work room can’t be worked in because it’s on the same floor with the Living Room and Kitchen and they want to do them all at once. They refused to say when they are coming upstairs so stuff got moved around there too. And now were in limbo because they didn’t show up, no one called, the house is chaos and I can’t do art. Stress is not good for any of us and now I am getting pissed as well. I’d love to tell them so, but they kind of have to actually show up for me to do so.


I knew this year was going to be hell, I just didn’t know it was going to be limbo as well.


Sigh, Spooty workmen…

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Monday, November 8th, 2010 08:25 am

Why does everything in life have to be so bloody blooming complicated.
And why did the universe decide to make this year so just utterly horrendously awful.

These aren’t really questions expecting answers…

I am just fed up with always being sick and coming down with more infections, running out of spoons and not getting anything done I want to get done.

I am tired and want to sleep, can’t sleep when I want to, but can’t stay awake when I need to.

I feel petty, frustrated, and CRANKY.

And if the universe imploded at this moment, I am really not sure I would really care.

I am all out of funny things to say.

Check back next week, my warped sense of humor might have returned by then.