shinryou: (Bat Day)
Saturday, September 10th, 2011 07:05 pm

The Beast may have mellowed with age and his spots now hidden by grey,

But his wild nature doesn’t change and spots though hidden remain.

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Wednesday, August 24th, 2011 09:27 pm

Contrary to popular opinion, not everyone on the net wants all their network sites connected, and I kind of resent the implication that I must be forced to do so.

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Monday, August 8th, 2011 05:35 am
Its August,
so yeah,
I'm sick again...
Every fracking month this year,
same ole crap.
I'm so tired of being sick...

shinryou: (Red Sabbath)
Sunday, July 31st, 2011 04:56 pm

My house was clean before the painters came, now I can’t even walk through the rooms. They are supposed to come and finish tomorrow so it’s not really worth trying to pick up. But it’s so frustrating...


Four of my six cats have summer colds. Much sneezing and looks of disgust on furry faces and everyone is grumpy. I kind of saw it coming as I had to lock them all up together when one already had a cold. But they were so traumatized by all the painters in the house and all the chaos, there wasn’t much other choice.


Why is nothing ever easy… sigh!

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Wednesday, June 29th, 2011 04:53 pm

I’m tired of being overwhelmed and drowning in life.

I have thrown all my spoons into the pool.

I‘m putting on the scuba gear and diving in after them.

I am just gonna lay on the bottom of the pool

And watch all the pretty bubbles go by….

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Monday, June 27th, 2011 03:55 pm

So I am a fairly easy going person as a whole.

I like to help people and be kind in general.

Don't really like to start trouble or be mean.

I really don't like people who play games and manipulate because I grew up with that, and I always hated it.

But just because I don't like to play, doesn't mean I don't know how.

Nor does it mean I'm not gonna notice when you’re trying to play me.

In fact, it tends to piss me off!

It takes a lot to get me really mad and annoyed, but when you do, I don't play nice and I don't play fair.

So in general I try to avoid things that are going to annoy me to the point I actually have to stand up and do something about it.

But damn, when you rub my face in it for all week long, I am starting to get annoyed.

Look I get that you’re somewhat gaga over my old boyfriend.

I get that you think he is the end all of end all, your new Prince Charming.

I realize the fact that he still thinks I am wonderful probably annoys you more than just a bit.

But for pity sake women, I have known him for twenty seven years and he's one of my dearest and closest friends, old boyfriend or not.

And frankly no offence to you, but I have seen your kind come and go with him over the years to the point that I stopped keeping score.

He's not the kind who settles down, he's not the kind who can ever stay faithful to just one women, he's the King of broken dates with a beautiful set of excuses that should be set down in stone they are so good. He lies though his teeth and laughs when you catch him at it and admits he lied. (Gotta love a cheerful lier) And he is the world’s greatest charmer even when you know he only means half of it.

This is just who he is.

He aint gonna change for no one.

Were still friends and close, because I am the only women he has ever known who knows these truths about him and doesn't care.

I am the only woman he knows who accepts him just the way he is and doesn't try to change him.

I am the only women he knows who loves him faults and all and is usually kind of amused even when he’s acting like a toad.

I am also the only women who will tell him to his face when he's being a cad and stupid, and who doesn't get mad when he ignores me.

There is no way in the universe he is ever going to let go of me as a friend. So deal with it.

I hope your relationship works; it would be nice if he could stop running around. But I am not holding my breath.

I am NOT a threat. His wild untamable nature is the threat.

So bloody well stop sending me stupid facebook messages about how wonderful you think he is and how I am his past.

Stop trying to pretend to be all friendly like while in reality you’re trying to tell me to clear off.

All that does is make me dig in my heels so I can watch the fireworks when it all falls apart... again.

I know you care deeply for him, they all do at the start, it lasts till they finally realize, he just aint gonna change.

Then comes the tears, the pain the phone calls and crying on my shoulder.

Let’s just pass on this whole game shell we.

He is never going to give up our friendship and I am never going to get in the way of his relationships’.

So as for you and him... all I can say at this point is...

Good luck with that... your gonna need it!

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Saturday, May 21st, 2011 09:18 pm

I am sick with an ear and gum infection… again.

And I’m five states away from my friend who just found out the place they thought they could stay at for a month she can’t stay at now.


She and he Mother drove all the way from southern California to Arkansas to stay for a month to get back on their feet after losing her job and their home, and now they have no money to get back and again no place to stay.


And I have no way to help them.

I am so frustrated!!!

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Wednesday, May 4th, 2011 11:43 am

Yes I fall a lot, that fact is pretty much established. I have chronic dizziness and no depth perception so grace is not a word one can apply to me for the most part. However it has been my experience that most people when it comes to stairs, tend to trip and fall down them. I use to do that a lot as a child, the falling down them part. I was sixteen before I learned people could actually die from falling down stairs. I thought they all just got up and walked away like I did.


Since we moved into our present house, ten years ago, I have so far managed not to fall down any of the stairs. Which is a pretty good feat; considering it’s a tri-level house with several sets of stairs both inside and out. Everyone else in the house has fallen at least once or twice. The closest I ever came was missing the last two to three steps going down which resulted in a huge jump on my part and a heck of a lot of noise which scared the cats and rest of the humans in the house.


So today I broke my record by tripping and falling… UP the stairs… hard. Witch while it may not break your neck, hurts a hell of a lot more when you land on your arm on the edge of the steps. So now my arm is black and blue and my shoulder blade is reminding me with throbbing pain it’s not happy with what I did. Which is just as well as the new heater and AC is being put in today, and as its right outside my bedroom door, I am pretty much trapped in my room till they are done.


Guess the universe decided today was a day of rest whether I wanted it to be or not…

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Friday, April 22nd, 2011 02:13 am
Some Days;

There are just no words...

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Thursday, April 21st, 2011 12:53 am

So we have to have a bunch of work done on the house. It’s over 47 years old and was a tract house, so it’s showing some wear. We have done small things here and there over the last ten years but really; it’s over due for a major overhaul.


We had the house painted last year and my brother put in two new fences and three gates. (Still waiting for half of one of those gates.) And this year his Mom decided to help out with the rewiring, new heating and cooling and other stuff that needs to be replaced.


So its decided the whole house needs to be rewired which is no surprise to us, as when you blew one fuse three rooms would go out and it got really annoying. So the electricians make plans to come and replace the wiring, only everyone in the house came down with the bronchitis from hell, and my brother isn’t letting anything go in unless he watches what they are doing. So we put it off for a week. The week goes by and they finally start work. They start on the garage and outside which makes much noise but doesn’t impact on life that greatly other than we had to empty the garage into the back yard. They were suppose to do my brothers room, bathroom and bar area off the garage first, but as it has no crawl space they decide to skip up to the main floor first… without warning me or my daughter, of course. So they move stuff in the living room all out into the middle of the floor so they can get to the plugs… and then haven’t showed up for two days to do anything, and they left after a half day Monday. They have suppose to have been working for ten days now, and when I counted up the days they weren’t here, only one of which they called about, they have only been working five and a half. And Mom’s management company wants to know why it’s taking so long…O~o


Really, I am more than happy to move stuff around so they can put holes in my walls to rewire, but I kind of thought the idea was they were actually going to do the work as we went. I can’t even get through my living room, my work room can’t be worked in because it’s on the same floor with the Living Room and Kitchen and they want to do them all at once. They refused to say when they are coming upstairs so stuff got moved around there too. And now were in limbo because they didn’t show up, no one called, the house is chaos and I can’t do art. Stress is not good for any of us and now I am getting pissed as well. I’d love to tell them so, but they kind of have to actually show up for me to do so.


I knew this year was going to be hell, I just didn’t know it was going to be limbo as well.


Sigh, Spooty workmen…

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Wednesday, April 13th, 2011 05:44 am
Just Because...


Step this Way... )
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Monday, April 4th, 2011 09:11 pm

So went to new Rheumatology doctor today. She was very through. She said I had some slight Osteoporosis in my hands and then ordered a whole bunch of tests. I got fourteen blood tests and a urinalysis done, then went to x-ray and got neck back and knees done.  It’s probably the more through testing I have done in quite a long time. I was impressed and I don’t impress easily.


I guess my hands are less nimble than they use to be and maybe a bit stiffer. But as all the other pains I go through hurt much more I hadn’t really noticed it until now. It’s not really a big deal as at least they no longer shake. That was far more annoying that a little stiff. When they shook (from a pinched nerve) I couldn’t do art or write. Heck I couldn’t even hold a glass without it flying across the room. I can write and do art now. Slightly stiff just makes me more careful when painting.


It’s all good.

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Tuesday, March 29th, 2011 11:00 pm

The next fool gardener who shows up in my yard with a chainsaw to cut my poor roses is going to be reeducated with my shiny new machete.


I am SO DONE with stupid!

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Monday, March 28th, 2011 08:07 pm

I really, really have to get out of this present mind set of “if I don’t write it down, it’s not really happening”.

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Thursday, February 24th, 2011 08:43 pm

The words you never want to hear from a doctor or dentist is “You have a massive…”

In case of yesterday it was my Dentist telling me I have a massive infection in my gums. I knew there was a problem which is why I went in, just wasn’t expecting it to be quite THAT BIG a problem….

So I am bad on heavy doses of penicillin... again; and on Saturday I get to go in and have her do sulcus sterilization with a laser on the two areas that are infected and then every ten to fourteen days three times after that repeat the process…

Oh Happy Happy Joy Joy!!!

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Tuesday, February 15th, 2011 10:32 pm

So far in January I had four whole days where I wasn’t sick. The first three weeks of January was the flu from Hades itself. Than I was feeling good for four days, went to am memorial and was sick for the rest of the month into this month with a upper respiratory crud, sneezing, coughing, no voice, so forth and so on.


2011; you’re not making a good show of yourself so far…


It has showed me one fact. People think I am antisocial because I hesitate to go see people. The reason I am hesitant to go where there are crowds of people is because as soon as I do, I come back sick. And while everyone else might get over in a day or week, it always knocks me out for three weeks at least. Frankly I am really quite fed up with being sick all the bloody time. Besides feeling like crap, I can’t get anything done. Can’t write, can’t read, can’t do art, it’s frustrating beyond words…


This normally world depress the hell out of me but at this point I am so fed up and disgusted I am just frankly pissed! I have an appointment next week with my doctor and my medical is straightened out, so she and I are going to be discussing this.


Provided I can stop coughing enough to get the bloody words out…

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Sunday, January 30th, 2011 04:20 am
Just for the record,
I am tired of sneezing,
tired of coughing
and my nose and throat have disowned me...

Just saying.
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Sunday, January 23rd, 2011 07:31 pm

Went to am memorial at LASFS for a friend who died last month.

It was a nice memorial and not depressing at all.


So than I woke up with laryngitis this morning, and now the all over body aches are creeping upon me along with the sore throat..


Stupid spooty germs…

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Sunday, January 9th, 2011 02:53 am

Started New Years day with a blinding migrain.
On the third, I got a bad can of tuna; and because I can't smell, ate it and got the worse food poisoning I have had yet.
Realized in the middle of the week that I forgot my medical insurance appointment and can't get another one till the 24th so I am not covered.
My teeth and gums are infected again.
And yesterday morning we had an electrical fire in the living room which shorted out half the house and melted the outlet.
One more thing that needs to be replaced and I still can't get the funcky smell out of the downstairs.
The gloomies are here to stay and after yeaterday the grumpies have joined them.

If 2011 is going to be the same as 2010...
I am going into hibernation until after the world ends and reboots in 2012...

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Sunday, December 26th, 2010 06:56 am
I have survived yet another Christmas...